Nnnngh. Jon was sick yesterday and had to miss work so I took care of him. I think I caught what he has, only not as bad. Blegh. My dad has it too. And my mom's been all shaky today. I think it's blood sugar. At least, I hope it is because it's the easiest to fix and the safest to have, all things considering.

Drove Mom to the store and we bought a bunch of fruit. Saw Mrs.Battle, who looked kind of nervous as I talked to her. I think she thought I'd be mad about her telling my mom Jon was a bad kid in high school. I was but I get it. She was just trying to look out for me, however misguided she may have been. I appreciate it but don't need it, plzkthnx. We bought an assload of fruits and vegatables, which my dad will probably only graze on since his cholesterol is high. He's of the "This isn't food! This is what food eats!" school when it comes to fruits and veggies. I was so mad when he was diagnosed with high cholesterol. He's six foot four and weighs less than I do half the time because of his polycythemia. He has to eat high calorie foods to gain weight. Ugh. Way to win, Fate. Way to win.

I've been feeling down for no reason lately. I've been feeling like there is no purpose for me to achieve, no grand scheme full of meaning that includes me. I'm excited about college on one hand and on the other I'm like "What's the point?" I become a teacher and then what? Will I really be able to understand my students, help them through their own personal hells? I've been brooding on the whole "Why do I exist?!" thing. What am I good for? What can I accomplish for the good of mankind? How can I help the world? You know, that good ole philosophizing stuff. (Which I have been reading. Which may be why I'm like this. I got really sad the other day because I read White Oleander. I've seen the movie, but all sorts of fucked up shit happens in the book that they don't show in the movie. T___T It's so sad.)

I hope this feeling doesn't last too long. I'd like to go back to the happt, go-lucky self I've been used to these past two years. On a lighter note, I've begun writing again. I haven't written much lately so I have to ease myself back into the swing of it. Also, I'ma ctually working on original stuff before I work on fanfiction! ZOMG *gasp*. I feel that this is an accomplishment and it makes me feel a little more meaningful.

Monk Out
She kissed me on the mouth. Her mouth tasted like iced coffee and cardamon, and I was overwhelmed by the taste, her hot skin and the smell of unwashed hair. I was confused but not unwilling. I would have let her do anything to me. -Astrid, from White Oleander

I scammed some kneesocks out of my parents. They said since I need new school clothes anyway I could get some. They were really cheap too.

Thanks for the site, Kowareta! ♥

^__^ My new kneesocks should arrive in a week or so.

I'm cleaning my room! And organizing. It looks like a tornado hit in there right now. I can't let my cats in there because they knock my stuff over and roll around in it. T__T

I found all the books I bought when I was going through my badly written romance phase. (5-7 grade.) -__- I hate myself. I'm giving them all to a used book store.

I'm also getting rid of some clothes. I'm going to get my Dad to take me to the Salvation Army to give them away.

^__^ My day was better than yesterday. Thanks for your love. <3

Kris

I got back yesterday just in time to go get HP 7.

I'm almost done with it. 8 and 1/2 chapters left!

I'm very disappointed though I do like a few things. I'll rant at you when I'm done. ^__^

Though I'll be nothing like this http://community.livejournal.com/its_a_fake/90152.html

I was at B&N with Admiral, Captain and Geo. I met some new friends! ^__^ I saw lots of cosplayers and got lots of books with the money I had saved for Dallas but didn't get to spend.

There was a Moaning Myrtle. She was awesome! She was like 50 and she had a toilet seat around her neck! And her friend was Tonks! ^__^

I met some college girls named Carla, Amber and Melodie. They were wicked fierce. Melodie drew a Dark Mark on me. ^__^

I saw a Voldemort cosplayer. She was just wearing a cloak so I thought she was a dementor, like the little kid dementor I saw. ^__^

Me: Hi! Are you a dementor?
Her: I'm VOLDEMORT.
Me: Ah. That's nifty keen!

~Later~
Me: Hi not dementor!
Her: LEAVE ME ALONE!

She was awesome. ^__^

I met this awesome chick named Carrie. I'm going to look her up on Gaia, along with Lafayette (He's a guy I met in San Antonio. He likes yaoi! He's really soft-spoken too. I likes him. ^__^) And I'm sure I spelled everyone's name wrong.

There were some guys sporting Team Voldemort shirts. I thought that was pretty awesome.

I met a mom who was knitting a Gryffindor scarf, like my mom did a few years ago.

We found an Anita Blake Comic Book. And Aunt Beth bought it. I told her Anita Blake was a Mary Sue and I still wanted to read the comic. XD I can't put that shit down, mate. Something about gay vampires gets me, even if the main charatcer is a Sue.



I had a lot of fun and here are the other books I got besides Harry Potter! (I am so disappointed..)

I got two pretty journals. One is big and has hearts all over it. Captain called it girly. ^__^ Another is small and pink.

Ada, or Ardor by Vladimir Nabokov- It's a troubling fairy tale of incest. ^__^ I finally got my hands on it.

The Cain Series Vol. 3 Kafka by Kaori Yuki-I thought I was picking up Godchild Vol. 3 but I didn't. I got the prequel. I only have issue one and I'm fighting my OCDness on reading things out of order, like I'm doing with Samurai Depper Kyo.

Transformations by Anne Sexton- Her take on 13 traditional fairy tales. Anne Sexton was fucked up but her poetry is love.

Trinity Blood Vol. 3-Which I chunked at Captain trying to hit her book but I hit her instead. T_T

BOOOOOOOOOKS!

I have new books.

These are the books I got when my Net was taken away:

The Chronicle of Crime: The Infamous Villians of Modern History and Their Hideous Crimes. by Mark Fido- This is in newspaper format and it talks about a wide range of crime from 1800-1999. It's very interesting.

Danse Macabre by Laurell K Hamilton- ^___^;;; All it contains is smutty vampire pr0n. I don't recommend it if you're looking for literary value.

Night Pleasures by Sherrilyn Kennyon.- ^__^;; I really like her characters, ok? I can like some smutty vampire books. Besides, she's funny. ^__^;;;

Project Pope by Clifford D. Simak- This is a really interesting sci-fi story about a future where humans travel space. There's a planet called The End Of Nothing where humans and robots have toiled for 1000 years to make the perfect religion, a bastardization of Christianity. It's very cool. I'm not finished with it yet.

The Demon Kings by Chris Bunch- Ok, when I saw this title I grabbed it. Because I bought a new game called The Devil Kings. (And it's hella fun in my opinion.) This book is about a Seer King who rules a magical land with an iron fist yada yada yada. It sounds like my cliched kind of thing.

The books I got today

When A Child Kills by Paul Mones- This is a really interesting but depressing book about parricide, when a child kills one or both parents. (Technically parricide reffers to killing of a father. Matricide is killing of a mother.) Most of the children have been abused. It makes me want to cry because what happened to them was so unfair. And I feel really guilty for being interested. T__T I felt awkward when I bought it because I don't want my parents to think I want to kill them. I can't even kill bugs! But I know they won't think so because I love them and they love me, even if we have problems with each other sometimes. ^__^;;;

Kiss Me, Kill Me by Ann Rule- A book about crimes come about out of a perverse love. I am working on a murder mystery but I should probably cease with the true crime books. They really make me dislike humanity.

Dark Masques: Stories of Modern Terror-This isn't by any one author but rather a collection of authors, including Stephen King, Ramsey Campell and James Herbert.

The Halo Effect by MJ Rose-Morgan is a doctor and gets a new patient named Cleo. Cleo is a prostitute and asks Morgan to read her unpublished book about her clintele. Cleo disappears and Dectective Noah Jordan is trying to stay one step ahead a serial killer. Morgan goes on her own investigation. Plently of smex is probably involved because it has the word sex at least three times on the blurb. ^__^;;;

Castaways of the Flying Dutchman by Brian Jacques- PIRATES. That's all I know.

The Relunctant Assassian by Preston Darby- An alternate history where John Wilkes Booth fled the authorites after killing Lincoln and hid in the West.

Books! ^__^

Kris

( POST OF DOOM )

"Boys who don't play nice end up dating their hands!" Shuuichi Shindou, Gravitation.

I have more books! Sadly, only two this time. I wanted to but Nabokov's Ava but my dad was with me and I didn't want to get into an arguement over the ridiculous contraband list. -__-

Earthian Vol. 1 - So much pretty! I love it and it makes me wish I had bought the second volume. I love the characters and how Chihaya and Kagetsuya don't suck each other's faces off in the first volume. And Taki! <3 I love him. I nearly died when I saw the Phantom of The Opera chapter. I mean, it's not like I fangirl it or anything. ~__^ But I loved Eternal Romance 1&2 the most.

The Bell Jar - You know how you're at the bookstore and you forget that book you wanted? Well, I found it by chance. <3 I've been wanting this book since I read Sylvia Plath in English. I haven't read it yet but I can't wait to start!

I saw James at the B&N today. I thought he had moved to Colorado! He walked past me and I was all
"James!" He turned and saw me and the glomping commence. We full body hugged for like 10 minutes. I miss him and he is doing a waaaaay better than he ever was here. He has a boyfriend (Also named Kris. XD) and friends! One is named Vodka (I can't remember her real name) and the other never told me her name. We talked about all that had changed and I got his phone number! <3 <3 He looks great, he really does. He asked if I had a MySpace and I said no. My mom still thinks the computer is going to kidnap me. -___- I need to tell him I have an LJ though! And I need to tell him that Ashley and I are together.

He's doing so much better! Before he left he was all emo and cutting himself and doing drugs and now he's happy. I'm so glad. I had really hated the person he had become in his unhappiness. James = love for life. <3 <3 <3

Kris

Yeah, this is a ritual. A precious, wonderful ritual. A ritual for loving someone. That is what a kiss is for. - Taki in Earthian Vol. 1

Have finished Lolita. It's amazing. <3

I went out of town today with The Captain (The Project is at an UIL thing for Literary Crit. Give a big 'Whoot Whoot!' to my brother from another mother! ^__^), Her mom and Grandma. 

Grandma gave me monies but I didn't get to spend any of it because she bought my books. ;___; I feel really guilty. 

We also bought swim suits because we're going to the beach this summer! *dreamy sigh* I've never been to the beach. I'm so exicted! I got this really hot two piece with a binki top and a skirt thing for the bottom. 

I need to do crunches like whoa. I don't care that the doctors said I'm not allowed to workout. I need to shed a couple of pounds so I can look hot. ^__^

Aunt Beth wanted to make sure the top didn't go down too low.

Aunt Beth: That doesn't look too bad.
Me: So I don't look like a hosbag, right?
Aunt Beth: *headesk*
Everyone else: *laugh*

We also went to the hardware store and JT and I played house with the doors and windows. XD

Am also going to go to church tomorrow. Do I want to? No. I decided that JT needed some company when Grandma and Aunt Beth drag her little Aethiest ass to church. ^__^ It makes me wish I had a shirt that says "OMG! Buttsecks!"

Organized religion. Chh. What a sham. 


Whooo!

Monk Out

I found this meme while looking up ways to fight writer's block. ^__^ I'm going to try some of them. I'm so sick of not writing. ;-; I found this at scribblesnaps.com.

Look at the list of books below.
Type “READ” beside the ones you’ve read.
Type “HALF” beside the ones you’ve started but not finished for whatever reason.
Type “WANT TO” beside the ones you’d like to read.
Leave blank the ones that you aren’t interested in.
Type “AGAIN AND AGAIN” beside the ones you could read again and again.

If you are reading this, tag you’re it! Let me know if you do it…

and just because Kris is fun, Add a book!

The Da Vinci Code (Dan Brown) READ
Pride and Prejudice (Jane Austen) WANT TO
To Kill A Mockingbird (Harper Lee) READ
Gone With The Wind (Margaret Mitchell) READ
The Lord of the Rings: Return of the King (Tolkien) READ
The Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring (Tolkien) READ
The Lord of the Rings: Two Towers (Tolkien)READ
Anne of Green Gables (L.M. Montgomery)
Outlander (Diana Gabaldon)
A Fine Balance (Rohinton Mistry)
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Rowling) READ
Angels and Demons (Dan Brown) READ
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (Rowling) WANT TO
A Prayer for Owen Meany (John Irving)
Memoirs of a Geisha (Arthur Golden) READ
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone (Rowling) READ
Fall on Your Knees(Ann-Marie MacDonald)
The Stand (Stephen King) READ
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban(Rowling) READ
Jane Eyre (Charlotte Bronte) READ...UNFORTUNATELY..
The Hobbit (Tolkien) READ
The Catcher in the Rye (J.D. Salinger) WANT TO
Little Women (Louisa May Alcott) WANT TO
The Lovely Bones (Alice Sebold) READ AGAIN AND AGAIN
Life of Pi (Yann Martel) WANT TO
The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy (Douglas Adams)
Wuthering Heights (Emily Bronte)
The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe (C. S. Lewis)READ/AGAIN AND AGAIN
East of Eden (John Steinbeck) WANT TO
Tuesdays with Morrie(Mitch Albom)
Dune (Frank Herbert)
The Notebook (Nicholas Sparks) WANT TO
Atlas Shrugged (Ayn Rand)
1984 (Orwell) READ AGAIN AND AGAIN
The Mists of Avalon (Marion Zimmer Bradley)
The Pillars of the Earth (Ken Follett)
The Power of One (Bryce Courtenay)
I Know This Much is True(Wally Lamb)
The Red Tent (Anita Diamant)
The Alchemist (Paulo Coelho) WANT TO
The Clan of the Cave Bear (Jean M. Auel)
The Kite Runner (Khaled Hosseini)
Confessions of a Shopaholic (Sophie Kinsella)
The Five People You Meet In Heaven (Mitch Albom) WANT TO
Bible READ
Anna Karenina (Tolstoy) WANT TO
The Count of Monte Cristo (Alexandre Dumas) READ AGAIN AND AGAIN
Angela’s Ashes (Frank McCourt) WANT TO
The Grapes of Wrath (John Steinbeck)
She’s Come Undone (Wally Lamb)
The Poisonwood Bible (Barbara Kingsolver) WANT TO
A Tale of Two Cities (Dickens) READ
Ender’s Game (Orson Scott Card)
Great Expectations (Dickens) WANT TO
The Great Gatsby (Fitzgerald) READ
The Stone Angel (Margaret Laurence) WANT TO
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (Rowling) READ
The Thorn Birds (Colleen McCullough)
The Handmaid’s Tale (Margaret Atwood)
The Time Traveller’s Wife (Audrew Niffenegger)
Crime and Punishment (Fyodor Dostoyevsky)WANT TO
The Fountainhead (Ayn Rand)
War and Peace (Tolsoy) WANT TO
Interview With The Vampire (Anne Rice) READ AGAIN AND AGAIN
Fifth Business (Robertson Davis)
One Hundred Years Of Solitude (Gabriel Garcia Marquez)
The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants (Ann Brashares)
Catch-22 (Joseph Heller) WANT TO
Les Miserables (Hugo) WANT TO
The Little Prince (Antoine de Saint-Exupery) READ AGAIN AND AGAIN
Bridget Jones’ Diary (Fielding)
Love in the Time of Cholera (Marquez)
Shogun (James Clavell) WANT TO
The English Patient (Michael Ondaatje) WANT TO
The Secret Garden (Frances Hodgson Burnett)
The Summer Tree (Guy Gavriel Kay) WANT TO
A Tree Grows in Brooklyn (Betty Smith)
The World According To Garp (John Irving)
The Diviners (Margaret Laurence)
Charlotte’s Web (E.B. White) READ/AGAIN AND AGAIN
Not Wanted On The Voyage (Timothy Findley)
Of Mice And Men (Steinbeck) WANT TO
Rebecca (Daphne DuMaurier)
Wizard’s First Rule (Terry Goodkind)
Emma (Jane Austen)
Watership Down(Richard Adams)
Brave New World (Aldous Huxley) READ
The Stone Diaries (Carol Shields)
Blindness (Jose Saramago)
Kane and Abel (Jeffrey Archer)
In The Skin Of A Lion (Ondaatje)
Lord of the Flies (Golding) READ AGAIN AND AGAIN
The Good Earth(Pearl S. Buck) WANT TO
The Secret Life of Bees (Sue Monk Kidd)
The Bourne Identity (Robert Ludlum)
The Outsiders (S.E. Hinton)READ AGAIN AND AGAIN
White Oleander (Janet Fitch) WANT TO
A Woman of Substance (Barbara Taylor Bradford)
The Celestine Prophecy (James Redfield) WANT TO
Ulysses (James Joyce)
Lolita (Vladimir Nabokov) IN THE PROCESS

....*super squee*

I went out of town yesterday and hung out at the mall with my cousins, The Project and The Captian. We went to the book store and I spent prety much all my money there. (Except for a Humphrey Boggart hat I bought at Hot Topic. ^__^) I found (and bought, unbeknownst to those who would tell me I'm not old enough to read it) Lolita.

*does happy dance*

I'm reading it as of now. I'm still on the first chapter because every time I would start on it, I'd hear the footsteps of my grandmother and I really didn't want her to shit a brick. Then, Dad came and picked me up and of course he had to do the mandatory book check. I hit it by sitting on it. ^__^ There is really no way he could have not noticed because I'm not really that smooth but he didn't ask so I told him no lies. ^__^

Lalalalalalalalalalalalala!

I also have this book called Piercing the Darkness: Undercover With Vampires In America by Katherine Ramsland. I was aware that there are people who believe they are vampires (i.e- My stalker) but they actually have covens! I am intrigued.... ^__^ It's a really bitchin' book.

But not as bitchin' as Lolita!

♥

So, Winny, no spoilers! ^__^ (Even though I know the whole freaking plot.)

I also signed up for seven snogs, a fanfiction writing community with themes and such. I currently pwn the Kurama/Kazuma Kuwabara pairing. Apparently, you have to write one story each month until you are finished. Doesn't seem too hard. Although I am going through writer's block so it may not have been the best of ideas. I admit, I am bit apprehensive because I'm doing something new. I've never written Kurama/Kuwabara before. I am working on various fictions of them though. I &hearts; that pairing. 

*sigh* I've been hugging Lolita to my chest when there is no one around. I got the pretty 50th anniversary edition with the pretty pink lips on it. 

I bought a grand total of 12 books. (Though three of them are from a used book store we went too and technicall, my grandmother bought those for me because I had no monies.)

I've been very busy doing nothing that is productive. I made my Dad take me to go rent movies a couple of days ago. I got A Tale Of Two Sisters, A Korean horror movie that took me until the very end to understand. Very bitchin'. Frakenstien, a movie that reminded me of fanfiction. (with Adam Goldberg!) and of course, Mel Brooks' Young Frakenstien. 

&hearts;

Monk Out

" I have a Humphrey Boggart hat!" - Me, at random moments during the day.